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Rediscovering my soul’s desires.

I’ve started a new journey. A journey of rediscovering the things that set my soul on fire. I didn’t realise, but there are so many things I stopped doing for no particular reason. After this Sunday’s brooding I came to the conclusion that I need to map out what I enjoyed doing as a child, as well as an adult, cross reference them and do something about it.

This took me days and a lot of research, but in the end I have a booked list of things I’ve got up and coming (and some I already started):

Yinyoga

It’s the most mentally and physically cleansing thing I can do to myself. I enjoy how the pain empties my mind completely and takes me to a higher place of relaxation.

Horseback riding

I used to LOVE horses. In fact that was my main hobby for years and you would always find me in the stables. Unfortunately we moved to a place that didn’t offer anything like it and that put a natural end to it. I’m pretty sure I would have been riding full time in some sort of horse sport if I had stayed on it, so now I’m going back to the basics. Also, horses are my favourite spirit animal.

One year writing course

Yep. I’m doing it. I love to write and I have the intention to have a book published before I die. Therefor I am signing up to a writers course to get some development and new skills. I am super excited about this and can’t wait to start!

This is my list for now and I’m excited to keep you updated as I go along. But first I’m taking a weekend trip with my friend Martine and thirty other people to this years pike fishing competition. It’s gonna be a party, so if you wanna know how Norwegians behave in the countryside please don’t hesitate to follow my instagram – I’ll post stories throughout the weekend.

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The existential crises of a seeker.

There are probably various understandings and definitions of “the seeker”, perhaps as many perceptions as humans, but in the end I’m sure we can agree that “the seeker” is a curious being that never stops his/hers search.

I am a seeker. I question everything. As amusing as that may sound, it’s sometimes what I would define as my own personal hell. For a good while now I’ve found myself in a existential crises. You must understand that the question relating to my existence has always been a subject to my mind, but this crises moved it up to the top of my every day self communication.

“What’s the meaning of my life?”

“What do I want in life?”

“Who do I want to be?”

..Are questions that repeat themselves daily. These are all relevant questions that I’m sure we all ask ourselves at some point, but this is driving me crazy. I know that I am not content with the life I am currently living. I want more. There must be more. I don’t mean materialistic things, I mean soul food. Fulfilment. A bigger sensation within myself.

I’ve been through endless books, podcasts and what ever source available to find the answers to these questions – not in a direct manner, but to find patterns and methods for how to move along and find to a more fulfilling place in myself. Some are helpful, some are not. Some inspire me and some just build up frustration. I’ve gotten to a point where I know I have to change the foundation of how I live my life and I know where I want to be (or don’t want to be), I just don’t know how to get there or what I want to do. And it’s paralysing. It’s like trying to find a needle in a dark, unknown room. Where do one start?

In the back of my mind I hear the echoes of unnamed souls who whisper “you’re 30 now, settle down”. Ugh. If you had any remote idea of how painfully untraditional I am at the core of my being, even just suggesting to whisper those words would make you shutter. It actually makes me feel very alone in this world when close relations don’t grasp the fact that we don’t view life’s fruits the same way. The lack of acceptance for a different world view. I mean, I’m ok with both viewing life differently and the fact (as mentioned in an earlier post) that we are alone in this life, but the distance is greater when the acceptance isn’t returned. I am truly happy for everyone who found their happiness and fulfilment with in the social code and values of their society, truly. I’m just not one of you.

So now what? Well, I came to a realisation earlier today while meditating. I’ve forgotten what I enjoyed as a child. I don’t know what I like anymore. To know what I like and want, I must do new things. Right? The answer is so easy that is almost painful that it took me so long to figure out. I felt like that time I tried to figure out my MacBook for the first time: so simple it makes you feel stupid. So here’s to trying new things! Now, don’t get me wrong, it’s not the answer to my existents or necessarily my crises, but I do welcome and appreciate any form of movement into my life.

I don’t think I am alone in this problem. How many of us truly knows the intention and motive of how we go about our daily life? Do you ever ask yourself why you do what you do? Do you truly do it for your own happiness or do you live your life from the outside looking in? I mean, what defines success for instance? Is it to reach a state of life where you as a being is fulfilled or is it a state of life where you are glorified by others? We live in a society where we live parts of our life’s so openly and it’s so set by the reactions of others. You know, what is given can always be as easily taken away. I don’t mean that we’re not depended on each other, I mean that there is a difference in our intentions from what we do. I know, for me this is true, that no one else can ever make me truly happy. I can find someone to compliment my life and happiness, but no one can ever be my happiness. That is a recipe for disaster. The same goes for my way of life. I can not depend on the confirmation of others to show me my path of life – then it isn’t really my life I am living is it?

I could go on about this subject for hours, but I’m going to cut it short here and go back to my Sunday brooding and seeking. If you have any good suggestions to new and fun things to try, please don’t hesitate to leave a comment. It’s very much welcomed.

Have a lovely Sunday.

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How does it work, Personal

Test: The viral Sand and Sky face mask – does it actually work?

As a flawed human being I am not immune to good marketing. The amount of time we spend on social media makes it a perfect place to trick our easily convinced minds and it’s not lacking of products that will miraculously change your life. Ok, an overstatement – but you get the idea. So, for the last couple of months I’ve found myself adding all kinds of shit to my shopping basket and clicking the corner x, but then it happened.. I went on and got the Sand&Sky miracle pink clay mask, made from unicorn poo on mars.

I will point out that I’m no stranger to skin care and because I’m no longer in my twenties I take that shit seriously. I’ve tried pretty much everything there is and I settled for products that actually works for me. With that said I’m always curious to new market entries for that little extra shabam and Oh man is that usually a call for disappointment.

So let’s get on to the point: Does Sand&Sky live up to the hype?

If you wonder, yes I LOVE robes. Robes is life. What I do not love is Sand&Sky. Watch the video to find out why.

Conclusion: spend your money elsewhere.

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The 10 most important things I’ve learned throughout my life.

Life is all about lessons. We learn as long as we live. It’s the core of how we stay in movement, develop and unfold ourselves. I find myself grateful for every decision I’ve made, it’s consequences and the lessons that I’ve learned from them – both good and bad. It’s what has taken me on the path I am today. Some stick deeper then others of course, but I wanted to share the 10 most important things I’ve learned in life so far and maybe you will recognise some of these lessons yourself.

1. Life is a first-person story. Everyone makes decisions from their point of view and the place that they are in at that point in time. It’s so easy to point fingers and be judgemental, but at the core of this it’s important to remember that we all see life through our own eyes. We don’t really know everyone’s story or the reasoning behind other people’s behaviour and choices. Be kind.

2. Appreciation is key. It’s not always easy, but to be grateful for your experiences are important for your wellbeing. There is always something to learn and with time, reflection and the right focus you will come to see that. Appreciate the little things if you find the bigger things hard at first. The more you are grateful for, the more you get to be grateful for. Personally I’ve got a whole notebook dedicated to gratefulness.

3. There will always be people who don’t wish you well. Solution: bye.

4. Mistakes are to be made. We need chaos to know order, like we need sadness to know what it’s truly like to be happy. Mistakes are to be made, but don’t ever let them define you as a person. You MAKE mistakes, you’re not A mistake. An important difference.

5. An accident rarely arrive in ones. When shit hits the fan is usually a shitfest. Breathe.

6. The people who truly love you will always have your back. The best thing about the worst time of your life is that you get to see people’s true colours. (Ref nr.3)

7. Always trust yourself. You’re eyes are easily blinded, but your gut feeling knows. Always.

8. Letting go is the ultimate freedom.

9. If it cost you peace of mind, the price is to high. (Ref nr.8)

10. Change is inescapable. You can choose to make it painful or you can welcome it and the joy it can bring in to your life, either way it is bound to happen.

I’ll round it off with the ultimate life advice:

don’t let anyone talk you out of it.

Thank you for stopping by.

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Travel

How London actually turned out.

I made a hella lot of plans for myself before I welcomed this weekend, but it didn’t really turn out the way I planned. I never got around to the Tate or to my precious donuts, but I can assure you that I had a lovely time.

Friday was mostly travelling. I had to book an earlier flight due to a storm. I made my mind up that I wasn’t going to be stuck at Gardermoen for hours – well, the early flight was delayed too, but I made it eventually. I checked in to the hotel and then found the closest pub and had a little beer adventure by myself before meeting up with Matt and heading for dinner. Mexican food was on the wish list, unfortunately Mexican food in Europe is never the same after you’ve had actual Mexican food. Sad, but true. Even so these hats kind of made up for that:

Then we went to Club Reign and met up with an old friend I haven’t seen in eight years! I can’t believe time goes by so fast. Syed worked as a promoter back when I studied in London and is still going strong. The club was amazingly weird and gorgeous.

Ps. I want that girls job. Getting paid to polish her nails.. #dreamjob

…and that was pretty much Friday. Saturday I spent in Oxford and Carnaby. I never got out of there. Once I enter TopShop all time is lost. And so is my money. I came out with lashes long enough to smack someone in the face – and new stuff of course.

I did shopping, lunch, a rooftop bar and just explored a little before heading back to the hotel for an hour before going to the concert venue. I didn’t really have any expectations for the gig (since I was severely drunk on tequila when I stumbled in half way through it the last time), but I’m gonna admit that I was impressed. The Shadowboxers are definitely getting a place in my playlist. I kind of gave myself a little guilty consciences towards myself for not paying attention the first time. I mean, I missed out. That band can play and put on a show! The vibe was really good too and I met so many fun people! All in all it was a really great night beyond my expectations.

Now I’m sitting at Gatwick waiting for my flight, reflecting on this weekend. I’m tired and look forward to coming home, but I’m kind of sad as well – Which is a good thing and means that I had a really great time.

Hope your weekend was as lovely as mine.

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Weekend plans for London.

Ok – so my weekend trip came up fast, but I’ve established a plan for my short visit and I want to share it with you. Now, I’m no first-time visitor to London. I actually did a semester of studying there in 2010, but these are definitely some good places to go for your first visit and some firsts for me as well.

Friday: I arrive late afternoon so I’m going to explore the hotel for a bit, before I enjoy Kensington – which (used to be and I hope it still is) a calmer area for shopping and bar jumping. It’s not super busy like Oxford street or Carnaby, though both Carnaby and Soho are must-does. Into the nightly hours I’m meeting up with an old friend, whom work in the London club scene, for a spectacular night at Reign show club. Check this out:

http://www.thelondonreign.com

Saturday: I hopefully don’t wake up to hungover. Brekkie is a must of course and then I’ll be off to Tate Modern, in which I haven’t visited since 2010. They’ve got some good exhibitions going on and I’m especially excited about these:

And then there is the general weirdness that Tate always offers. I was planning to go see my old university, but I’m kind of thinking I might skip that and go to Shoreditch for the worlds most amazing cronuts.. I mean. It’s worth the flight alone and you only find them in London and Dubai. Correction: they’re also in Brighton now. Look at this:

You have not had a donut or a cronut until you’ve had DumDums. A donut will never be the same ever again. Check out their Instagram: Dumdum donutterie

…and while in Rome.. I might just enjoy Brick Lane. Not sure if the Market is up on Saturday, but it’s always a pleasure no matter what. When night falls, as you know, I’m going to Borderline to enjoy The Shadowboxers. Check out the vid in my last post.

And that’s really it for my trip. Sunday I go back home, so I don’t really have time to do anything other than prepare for the airport.

Got any great tips? I’m always happy to get some tips of happenings. If you wanna follow my trip, make sure to follow my Instagram.

Have a lovely Thursday!

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London calling.

Good Tuesday fellow humans!

I did a Q&A @ my insta the other day and got asked where my next trip would go – in which I hadn’t really got any concrete answer, but as it turns out I’m off to London this weekend! I haven’t been for quite some time, so I’m excited! So how did this come about? Well, first off I decided a long time ago to turn myself in to a YES-man. Or woman – which is more appropriate. I met some really fun people at the Justin Timberlake concert I went to last week and got invited to go see their show in London and here we are. I’m going for two days and booked myself the most amazeballs hotel ever. Just look at this:

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Are you as excited as I am?! Wait for it… It’s called The Exhibitionist. I just hope those mannequin lamps aren’t actual people peeping.. I do absolutely love the vibe of this hotel though and hopefully it will go right in to my Top 5 favorites.

Even though there’s still some days left until I leave I just have to get my sh*t in order, so I pulled out my travel outfit and started planning what to pack.

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I mean, I start work tomorrow after a very long time off. And I’ve got commitments today, so I best be prepared in good time. I’m gonna try to document the things I do for you so that I finally can give you an appropriate travel post when I get back, but don’t get your hopes up to much – You know I get caught up in the moments.

If  you want to check out the band I’m seeing they recently posted a new YTvid:

Good, right?!

Now I have to stress about to  get my ass out the door. Thank you for stopping by and have a lovely Tuesday ❤

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