A journey comes to an end.

A two week journey is coming to an end. It has been a great, but intense one. This has been the longest amount of time I have spent on a journey alone, and that has made me very vulnerable and sensitive.

2019 has, as the extension of 2018, brought me a lot of stress and complicated situations which are on the merge of being solved. But even so, I had to break the pattern and decided to take a break from everything by leaving for Los Angeles. LA is my happy place, but staying here alone also brings me challenges that can be hard to deal with. See, the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with is my soul and when I put myself in the situation where I have to spend a lot of time with myself in a vulnerable position I’m like a rollercoaster. Don’t get me wrong, I do appreciate everything about it because it makes me grow in a different course and phase than I would at home, but in these moments my heart bleeds.

This trip has also brought me lovely experiences. The most wonderful thing about this trip has been the relationship with my family here. I feel so loved and so much closer to them. See, even if I do travel alone I’m never really alone. I stay with the most heartwarming and wonderful people and I’m so happy that we got to spend more time together.

I always debate in my head while I’m here, if I want to make a move or what to do. Truth is I love Norway. It’s home. And that will never change. I’ve really felt upon missing my loved ones this time around and I miss the cold air on my face in a twisted, absurd way. So unlike previous times I will leave today with content, not heartbreak. But I also know I will be back very soon..

Now I’m gonna soak in the sun I can before I have to leave for the airport.

Thanks for stopping by.

xx

4 Comments

  1. Well, I do not like LA as a general rule. It has a hard edge to it along with too many people thinking their shit don’t stick and I have spent way too much time stuck on the Harbor freeway or crawling on the Golden State trying to get home.

    The general filth and litter only compliments the endless tagging… even on bathroom mirrors.

    Glad you enjoy it. I’d rather be challenging my heart with an icy bath in a quiet, frozen lake that I can walk to in Scandanavia (and not have to pay $15 for access to- then tip toe around diapers and Bud Lite beer cans)… than trying to make a left turn onto Alondra Blvd.

    I left LA in 1998 and don’t miss it one damn bit. I went back in 2016 for my work and tried to give it another shot. I hiked up to Mt. Wilson, which was great, but visiting Point Fermin was a downer. Ghetto bird angry rap sounds full of F-bomb profanity coming from a worn out mini van, overflowing trashcans and a filthy food truck and two car alarms within 30 minutes. No one turned off the alarms… they just timed out.

    Enjoy!

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    1. Oh, I’m sorry that’s your experience.
      I do get what you’re saying though.. on the other hand I find it amazing in so many ways. I’ve met with amazing people here and I love them to bits. It is also that shallowness of course, but I find that fascinating when I do cross those paths. It’s a great place to learn about humans. And also I love the contrast of nature.
      ….but of course. There is no place like home. The rawness of both nature and people. The air. The water. The stillness. My heart will forever belong to Norway and nothing can change that.

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  2. I favor the San Francisco Bay Area… mostly the East Bay is where I hang out. But the City can be truly magical. So much more to see and do and I am more in sync with the weather and environment there.

    I know my previous comments sound pretty harsh… and I don’t retract what I said. But I have spent a lot of time in that area and I know there are a lot of good people and places. Like that pic where you are sunbathing on rocks; that looks like up in Topanga. Get me north of Santa Monica and my attitude changes!

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